Every time i wake up, my head is spinning. Such a great headache i feel. And i don't know why. Maybe i had a bad dream last night. But hey, 7 from 10 of my dreams are the bad ones. And it makes me uncomfortable.
I remember the pain i got years before. Suffer, lonely, hopeless, altogether create a hole right in my heart. A hole that haunting me around. A hole that can't shut. And it's painful.
Years later, and i fall in love again. I thought that love can fill my hole. Can shut it forever, and bring the peace in my life. But then, just like before, i'm totally wrong.
My love isn't as beauty as i thought. My love isn't as pure as i thought. My love isn't... Aahh i'm not sure if this is love.
I don't know. There's a doubt in my mind that wondering me around. Uncertainly.
I don't know. There's a doubt in my mind that wondering me around. Uncertainly.
And when it comes to marriage, my doubt growing bigger and bigger. I don't know what is essential on marry someone. What make us certain, a hundred percent, that we make a right choice for live with the one till the end of time.
I don't know what the correlation of love and marriage. But for me, a hopeless romantic who wants live my life in peace, being able to married with the one who has same character, same idea, same vision, same understanding, and able to calm my heart and my mind... Yes, she is the one.
But now, hey, i don't know.
